Two things I’ve always struggled with are asking for help and knowing when I’m doing too much. In my family they are common problems, but despite that I still haven’t figured out how to handle them.
Over the past two weeks I worked 12/14 days and pulled in a lot of overtime. On my two days off I ran errands and did chores and didn’t really end up feeling rested. At the end of my workdays I really just want to go to bed, but I’ve been making myself take care of other things. As a result, I’m tired and emotionally worn out from the past few weeks.
In addition to work-stress, I have the stress of taxes (just this past week I got the tax information from one of the jobs I had last summer-almost two full months and fifty phone calls after I was supposed to receive it), concern for my cat (she’s not eating as much as usual and is 17 years old), the stress of trying to figure out if I’m going to get a roommate or stay in my current apartment, and some other day-to-day stresses that I won’t get into right now since I want to keep this post under 5000 words.
Unfortunately, none of this is the kind of stress that I can just ask for help with to make it go away. This is the kind of stress that I just need to deal with and try to keep under control by having some quiet alone time during which I don’t have to think.
Normally on Thursday nights I go to a yoga class at my gym, but I don’t think being around other people will help me right now. So tonight I’m going to curl up with my cat, put on season 3 of the fantastic show “Legend of Korra,” and eat a few cookies. I’ll go to bed early and (hopefully) wake up feeling a little more in control and relaxed.
If that doesn’t happen, maybe I’ll try screaming into a pillow for a while.